3am

Hello. I don't know why and how i could write this, but this just came out. Sincerely, from my mind. So listen, here.

I was opening some social networking sites, and then your name just showed up when i'm on the main page. Then I started to muse our memories and thoughts.

Our laugh and tears, the times that we spent together.

Hello you, there. I'm wondering what are you thinking right now. How's your life now, fine? I see that you're having good times now, without affecting something of my existence. or maybe just a little 'how-are-you' I confess, that was the best summer I've ever had. Everything that we had, well, that was a good one.

And what made me suddenly realize is that you are different. We are separating each other, even that we never realize something about it.
But deep in my heart, I do. And I know you do the same way too. We're taking each other too far to the opposite direction.

Well maybe I’m not what this or that person like, or maybe that kind of girl that you adore, maybe I'm not fond of what I am and it’s up to you.

We used to be friends. Yes I see that we are now friend, but not in that way anymore. We used to trust, rely and care of each other.

Now we wont even say 'hello', or even just a simple greeting,

because the fact is that we are afraid of our built-own boundary.

I have tried, everything just to talk to you again. Every single one. And I know that you have done the same things too, but it's just us.

But just so you know,

I really want to get back, when summer was just started.

When we are united and we are close.

Because without you, I feel blank. I have no one to talk with when I'm waiting. I have no one to help me whenever I encounter a problem.

I have no one to share happines with, and that's just irritating.

I do miss you. Come back.

" I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down

But I know how I feel about you now"

Random

Bold = True

01. You’re currently confused about someone’s feelings for you.
02. You have been in a serious relationship before.
03. You own an iPod of some sort.
04. You do not like your sibling’s girlfriend/boyfriend.
05. You drink too much alcohol.
06. You have been to the Olive Garden.
07. You have taken medicine of some sort this week.
08. It is really cold in your house right now.
09. You are extremely dependent on others.
10. You do not like to express your feelings in front of others.
11. You ate a lot of food today.
12. It doesn’t take much for you to cry.
13. People consider you a sappy sort of person.
14. Someone in your family is rich.
15. You have been to Disney World or Disneyland before.
16. You hate when people constantly talk about themselves.
17. You are a good listener, but you hate complainers.
18. Someone has called you for a serious medical emergency before.
19. You have had a serious surgery.
20. Your house has a spare bedroom.
21. Your house is old.
22. You have at least one cousin under the age of three.
23. You have never held a baby before.
24. You can’t handle toddlers.
25. You have a painting in your room.
26. You have been to Canada.
27. You have been to Mexico.
28. You love cherry flavored lollipops.
29. You celebrate Easter.
30. You observe Lent.
31. You are Catholic.
32. You do not believe in God.
33. Religion is not important to you.
34. You want to have a BIG family one day.
35.You would rather have more sons than daughters.
36. You have more aunts than uncles.
37. You hate being too cold.
38. You currently are way more tan than everyone else.
39. You wear shoes in your house.
40. Your parents are clean freaks.
41. You are more messy than clean.
42. You are currently angry at someone.
43. Patience is so not a virtue to you.
44. Your desk is extremely clean.
45. Your bed sheets are either blue, green, black, or white.
46. When you hear ‘black & white’ it reminds you of Katy Perry’s ‘hot n cold’ song.
47. You have no clue what that song is.
48. You think rap artists are completely pathetic.
49. You are glad George Bush will be/is out of office.
50. Politics are boring to you.
51. You take a vitamin daily.
52. You feel like you are sick often.
53. You hate throwing up.
54. You think it’s gross when people set food down on their desk at school with no napkin.
55. You also find it gross that people sit on top of desks.
56. You are now cringing at the thought of someone’s food where someone’s ass was.
57. You love getting bubble baths.
58. You do not like chocolate at all.
59. You are allergic to nuts.
60. You have been stung by a bee before.
61. You have been to the emergency room before for something.
62. One of your parents is 50 or older.
63. You are the baby of your immediate family.
64. You hate broccoli.
65. Cooked carrots are good, though.
66. You go on tumblr too much.
67. You are really comfortable right now.
68. You like witty t-shirts.
69. You are a major fan of underground bands.
70. You have been on an airplane before.
71. You are not afraid of heights.
72. You consider yourself paranoid.
73. You have had a panic attack before.
74. The thought of being old and alone bothers you.
75. You would choose the elderly over children.
76. You feel like you’re living in the wrong decade.
77. You have smoked weed before.
78. You think it’s way too cold outside right now.
79. You love the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning.
80. You would rather go to bed early and get up early.
81. You feel like the early bird catches the worm.
82. You are a big breakfast eater.
83. You are currently suffering from the common cold.
84. You are craving something salty.
85. You have been in a car today.
86. There is something plugged in near you.
87. You have heard of the TV show ‘Private Practice.’
88. You do not like medical television shows.
89. You prefer horror to comedies.
90. You adore Leo & Kate.
91. You think high-waisted pants look good
92. You hate cheesy movies.
93. You enjoy camping out.
94. Bugs don’t bother you.
95. You do well in school without trying.
96. You are extremely jealous of someone currently.
97. You feel like you have changed a lot from 08-09.
98. You like energy drinks.
99. You like italics.
100. You know the entire script of Mean Girls

Esvediscla

I love you Esvediscla. My full time lover and my full time friend :)

"We got older and I should've known
That I'd feel colder when I walk alone
So I may as well ditch my dismay
Bombs away, bombs away

If my heart was a compass you'd be north
Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall
Wherever you go
If my heart was a house you'd be home"

-Owl City

My life is however many 66% happy

[x] You know someone that cares about you.
[ ] You have a boyfriend/ girlfriend.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[ ] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still/ getting married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
[x] You live in a house.
Total:6

[ ] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[ ] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
[x] You laugh more than twice a day.
total: 11


[ ] You have over 50 friends on myspace
[x] You have pictures on myspace
[x] Your parents let you have a myspace
[x] You get allowance.
[x] You collect something normal.
[ ]People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[x]you look forward to going to school.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
[x] You shower daily
Total: 19

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You are happy with your apearance
[ ] You aren't self-consious at all.
[x] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
[x] You have many inside jokes with friends.
[x] You know your parents care and love you.
Total: 24

[x] U know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[x] You are happy with your life
[x] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[ ] You dont have any enemies
[x] You are happy you're living.
Total: 33

Now count the number and multiply by 2
Then repost saying 'My life is however many % happy

truth?

you're everything i thought you never were and nothing like about you could've been. but still you lived inside of me, so tell me how is that.
and yes there are times when i hate you but i don't complain, cause i've been afraid that you would walk away
but still, i will stand in my way, no matter how hard seeing you not to stay. letting go isn't easy, but i will try my best.

capek

halooo, udah lama jg ya gak post

mau cerita deh...........ih sebel

masa td nyokap gue ambil rapot gt

ya taulah gmn, ih sebel bgt deh,pake bawa bawa nama orang segala

tadi kelasku bikin angket loh hihi dan aku dapet angket....best couple -_-

dih sok imut pake aku

trs tadi seru deh di sekolah. abis itu pas plg gue ke kumon tapi cuma ambil pr doang

masa waktu itu gue nntn orphan ngahaha sok berani bgt ye nonton orphan.

hasilnya? gue gakbisa tdr sendiri hehehehe serem bgt abisnya takut tiba tiba si esthernya itu muncul trs nusuk gue gt wkwk namanya juga imajinasi

cuci muka aja gue gak berani merem, gue bela belain mata gue kena sabun. buat apa? buat jaga jaga kalo ada esther -_-

pinter abis kan ye wkwk takut soalnya kalo nutup mata, pas dibuka tau tau ada hantu gt wkwk lucu lu

aaaaa bosen bgt ih

nilai ulanganku? hancur hihihi bangga -.-

yaudah deh capek hihihi bye

.

i lose my sense of wrong and right.

Thursday

hai
krik krik krik

eh today was fun loh, gue td pagi telat trs sebelah fia, di kelas ketawa tawa gt. seru deh eh abis itu kan gue bosen bgt terus gue keliling tebet sendirian lhooo hihi gak keliling deng cuma ke home made ice cream, dejons alfa midi blablabla trs balik deh. aku beli ben and jerry's cookies and cream wihihi enak bgt deh

eh iya td gue kumon! pas gue dateng ada jason michelle dinda, kan gue pikir pasti bakal seru nih, eh trs jason sama michelle les jam 3! huhu sedih bgt padahal gue udah menang menangin tuh dtg setengah 3, trs gue nanya sama jason,
"lo selesai jam 5 kan? balik lagi gak?"
"hmm gaktau nih, lo jam 5 masih ada?"
"masih masih"
tdnya dia udah mau balik lg tapi michellenya males -.- yaudah mereka pergi, trs gue ngobrol sama dinda, td ketawa ketawa gt sampe gue dipindahin ke pinggir.

eh pas gue lagi ngerjain di pinggir sendirian sedih sepi (gak gak gak) tiba tiba ada jason! wiwiwiwi seneng bgt gue, yah tp gak sama michelle yaudah gpp. trs dia duduk sebelah gue gt, tadinya gue gak dibolehin nyontek sm jason. sumpah pertamanya jason jahat bgt! masa apa apa kl gue ngomong dia bilangnya 'terus kenapa?
trs nyolot bgt sumpaaaaaah pokoknya jahat deh

eh trs lama lama boleh nyontek, jason jadi baik lg hihi. willy test trs gue sm jason taruhan eh gue menang :p
trs darari tes m, kan di buku m yang keluar di tes gue tandain trs tadi gue sama jason ngebantuin darari hihi
seru deh trs ada kezia, eh anjing bgt masa kepala gue dipukul sm jason tp gua bales haha trs make sendalnya bentar enak deh gue dipinjemin sendal fufufu jadi terharu...apabener -.-
trs tadi kan gue belom selesai trs jason nungguin gue selesai gt terus ngomongin yang gak penting penting, ngmngin si anjing puas bener hauhauha asik

abis gue selesai kumon trs si jason turun, gue turun jg abis itu gue ngobrol gt di kantin sm si unyil haha gakdeng sm jason
pas mau pulang kan gue ke wc masa di wc cewek ada cowok lg buang air(haha -.-) di wc cewek trs gak pintunya gak ditutup
lama bgt lg gila sabar aja gue mah

trs gue dijemput trs pulang deh fufufu

eh iya gue baru sadar, tidur itu ternyata pengaruhnya banyak ya. akhir akhir ini gaktau knp gue suka gak ngantuk gt jadi tidurnya jam 12an. padahal gue harus bangun jam setengah 6. naaah semenjak gue tdrnya malem itu, muka gue jadi gmn ya pokoknya aneh! jadi gak fresh gimanaaaa gt haha gila eh tp beneran, trs bangun pagi muka kumel banget.

trs di kelas gue suka ketiduran! sumpah ini gaktahan bgt tau tau gue udah mimpi, kadang kadang tidur tp masih kedengeran samar samar suaranya ngerti kan? ya jarang sih, tp lemes banget gerak aja udah susah, lemes bgt deh rasanya gak ada tenaga.

intinya, tidur itu penting!
hedeh sok pinter lu hahuhasuygad
eh nyokap udah bernyanyi nih gakdeng -.- gue disuruh off oke daaaaah

kumoooon~

nih nih yang akhir akhir ini deket sama gue di kumon eh udah lama deng

ini namanya vallencia michelle yut,adeknya jason. Pipi kareeet ngihihi dia kumonnya udah lulus, kelas 2 sd haha gua aja kalah -.- Baik banget deh suka bocorin soal soal ujian ke gue trs suka gakmau kalo ditawarin permen (?) anak emasnya pak aseng wkwkw nggak deng ah pokoknya michelle baik banget deh tp kalo udah jadi asisten trs disuruh suruh sama sandy errrrrr jahat -.-

ini octavian jason yut, kakanya michelle. Sekarang udah lulus juga, baik juga suka ngebocorin soal ujian haha suka bantuin gua, hafal banget sama baju baju orang hihi dia aja hafal senin gua sm yang lain pake baju apa selasa baju apa kamis jumat wkwk gila -_- tp kalo udah jadi asisten trs disuruh suruh sandy juga grrr

ini gita,cantik tapi alay wkwkkw canda, baik bgt dah jago nyontek dia mah apa aja dicontek. Suka beli permen borongan juga haha sering dimarahin bu beta

ini ninis nadira, baik juga sama kaya gita tp jarang nyontek

sm khalila aliya willy fian kevin sandy tp gak ada fotonya males ah hihi

kasih bonus nih si kester

joe sandeeee~

yaudah ya mandi dulu!

sayonara

30

Caaaaaaaaaan you name 30 people you can think of right off the top of your head?Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 30 people.

No cheating!

1.Octavian Jason Yut

2.Vallencia Michelle Yut

3.William Emmanuel

4.Aliya Hanifah

5.Anisa Chandra Kharimah

6.Vidya Jasti Nessa

7.Larasinta Aulia

8.Vinesa Indyafifah

9.Dinda Emily

10.Syadza Zuwisa

11.Ajeng Sunarso

12.Khadijah gamalama

13.Fatimah Gamalama

14.Cissy Nanda Octavina

15.Desica Adimia

16.Birrandry Diva

17.Indira Fadhila

18.Winda Khairani

19.Salma Hanifah

20.Hikari Citra

21.Shannaj Kalila

22.Muhammad Pradivano

23.Sandy Adhitya

24.Kevin Siraj

25.MuhammadAufar

26.Muhammad Alief Akbar

27.Jerry Oktafyan

28.Faris Ihsaan

29.Faiz Alwan Tagar

30.Abie Alazca

• How did you meet 10?
- Dikenalin Nesa

• What would you do if you had never met 6?
- My life would be plain hahahaha -.-

• What would you do if 20 and 15 dated?
- bengong

• If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be?
- hahahaha cissy si gansssss

• Did you ever like 9?
- hahaha gilak-.-

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?
- Nooooo dia mah ketawa mulu

• Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
- Dunia lesbi

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple?
- Kakak adek juga ah tolol -_-

• Describe 8:
- enak diajak.........................temenan

• Do you like 12?
- Of course

• Tell me something about 17:
- Chantique

• What's 7's favorite color?
- tidak tahu

• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you?
- "hah?sarap"

• When was the last time you talked to number 15?
- Kemaren

• How do you think 19 feels about you?
- Tidak tahu

• What languages does 13 speak?
-Indonesia

• Who is 2 going out with?:
- tau

• What grade is 16 in?
- 8 jugaa

• What is 5's favorite music?
- Banyak

• Would you ever date 3?
- No

• Is 11 single?
- Yes

• What is 10's last name?
- Zuwisa

• Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 7?
- hahahahahha lesbi

• Where does 18 live?
- setiabudi apa ya namanyaaaaa lupa pokoknya deket rumah nchum

• What do you think about 20?
- Biuti

• What is the best thing about 4?
- Ceria terus geelak

• Is 21 hard-working?
- Yes yes yes

• What would you like to tell 14 right now?
- Cis pulang ke jakarta cepetan!

• How did you meet 9?
- Clavente

• What is the best and worst thing about 2?
- kalo jadi asisten rese

• Are you going to know 3 forever?
- Hahahahaha tau

• How long have you known 26?
- 1 tahun wikiki

• Who is 24?
- Anaknya yang punya kumon jp hihihi cie -.-

• Are you or did you ever date 28?
- No

• Do you have a crush on 27?
- No wkwkkw

• Would you kiss 25?
- Hahaha ampe mati juga engga

• Have you hugged/kissed 22?
- No

• Is 29 your bff?
- Gaktau wkwk

• What do you hate about 23?
- Pelit banget dah gila -.-

• What's your relationship with 30?
- temen msn sama temen tk